Self-Esteem

I've been letting my depression get to me again. It's making me lazy and I've stopped caring for myself again. I planned on starting my food exchanges again, and I haven't . I planned on exercising, but I haven't, I haven't even started yoga like I wanted. I stopped reading, which I had fallen back in love with. Out of all the things I haven't done, I did draw this amazing picture. It didn't take too long to make, but my whole heart was in it. Everytime after that I've tried to draw my heart hasn't been completely there, and it shows. I have been doing a lot of wedding related things. Mostly just getting my ideas out. I do need to start focusing back on myself though. I want to be completely satistfied with myself, and have lots of self confidence when I get married. I don't want to have anxieties on my wedding day. I just want to be happy, and relaxed. I think tomorrow I should try my zen painting. It's this board that you paint with just water while meditating, the water aborbs into the board. I think it will help me relax, plus I think I should do atleast ten minutes of yoga and a half hour of exercising. I should also work on planning to start my food exchanges again. I want to plan a weeks worth of meals, with flex room, then shop for the food. This way I'll have what I need before I start, so I don't slack due to lack of foods needed.

So, tomorrow I need to start focusing on myself again, for that I need sleep. Good night.

~Peaches