So I got bored and was reading my old Dead Journal, now I was reading the last entry until my 4th hospitalization and decided to blog. Now the parts I read weren't the bad times, but the times when I was trying to get better. Of course it still amazes me how much depression infects other people. So many of my friends got depressed after enduring my depression for so long and at least 3 picked up cutting. The worst part of them cutting is their parents blamed me and wouldn't let them talk to me. I serious wanted to yell at their parents and say "Hey, it's not me! Obviously there's something else wrong! Try talking to your kid!" but the only adult I ever yell at is my mom. I guess when I'm depressed I start thinking about the bad parts of my life, which is never good...
So anyways...
I have work 6am tomorrow. I am normally asleep by now so I can wake up at 5am, but insomnia says no. I'm not tired at night, I'm exhausted in the mornings, I tell myself to nap when I get home from work but it doesn't happen. I just want sleep. Of course some of you maybe wondering why I'm not trying right now. Well I am, this is being sent by email through my phone, I am currently in bead trying to get tired.
Well Night,
~Peaches
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