Guilty

I don't really know why it's takenme all week to write this blog. Monday my uncle pleaded guilty, to a lesser charge but still, it's over. He will be getting timed served and is never allowed to come in contact with me. The no contact is a comprimise, I wanted Megan's Law but he wouldn't agree to it. My anxiety has just disapeared since Monday. I was so anxious, not knowing if he would acctually plead, not knowing how I'd if he did. I've been going through a mass ammount of emotions lately now that I'm off all medications. I've been depressed and an emotional wreck for so long that I don't know who I am happy and free. I feel happy and blank, I don't know what to chanel my emotions into. I know ovious things would be my art, my wedding, cleaning, but I havn't really been doing anything.

Although next week will be different, Chris was laid off this week. It's acctually a good this, his job wasn't the greatest to him. While he's got nothing else to do, we're going to clean up so he can plug the desktop back in. He's planning on attending an online college, so we want him to have a nice space for it. Since they started cutting back our hours at Kohl's already, I'll have time to do things with him.

I'm sorry if this blog seems off, I'm realy tired but I wanted to post this.

Random quote from 'Mercy' that amused me: "It's healthy for you and the environment." "Yeah, this is Jersey, that ship has pretty much sailed."

~Peaches